Been long time didn't update, what i'd learned?
blogger, hmm... i learned a lot, im glad, im happy about myself that i'd grown up....
what had happen just past, i knew i cant rewind and just fix it. im happy with my life now.

owh ya, i'd done my second semester ! yay !
time goes by, is Merdeka, is Raya.
Bulan Ramadhan, i did fast, i feel great in fasting, very happy,
haha, now im excited Hari Raya, even im not muslim, but they say, 1Malaysia !

thats all about my life now....

to be continue.....

Holiday...

Holiday...great... It shuld be. But...
Im happy but... Something still bothering my happy moment! Really stress... Shhh...hee, at morning only i feel happy, but at night, hmm....only one person understand me,, always support me, always be myside, thank you very much to tutt... Hee... I miss tutt...
Back Lahad Datu,, it should be great and happy, ya, feel very comfortable and im free of lots of stressful...but have to solve some problems also.... Hmm...problems non-stop,, keep coming towards me, but im strong enough, i'll not easliy give up, tutt always guide me, thanks gain. I can do it, i can face it.

I'm Blurr....

Why is this happen to me?? Ya, I admit, I attract it! I knew how the games play, but sometimes I just can't control myself to keep thinking of it, and I just without realize I attract it. But luckily somebody will remind me. Erm, talking about human, now i just realize that sometimes even you trust the person, they can just even betray you. So sometimes we should be selfish to keep go on in this LIFE. God create human, God sometimes test us. That's why there is Dark & White. I am being through this situation. Very hard, very tired, very hard feel, very sad and the worse is I don't know what to do????? BLURRRRR... @.@

Why when i get close to someone that I love must be trouble?? Must jealousy, sadness, arguement, and bla bla bla...... Hate it....!!!!!!!!!! Please larh, please don't think negative, don't make such a foolish things that might make us quarrel. Think twice, think wisely! Hey we are adult, not like my lil brother just 4 years old CHILDISH! In some situation, we cannot control the flow. BUT, but please don't make it worse. Some situation, we can't hold in tight what we want. Just like when you love that person then the person close to others. You can't hold their privacy. Sometimes should let it be, let them get close try to trust it, don't JEALOUS.. please don't, it is childish...!!! what for?? as long as the one you love still remember you, still respect you and still love you. ~UNDERSTAND THIS MSG~

~Sadness is back~

SunDay~ As usual, go to church, family day. I'm really bad, I went to mass but I didn't concentrate to the wording. BAD...too bad... besides, I don't know chinese well. Hee... hmm...after church we went to merdeka supermarket before going home. From church to home, we must pass by Hospital Queen Elizabeth. Arghh...damn it,, I hate to see there, and if can I don't even want to pass by there. QE, a very sadness place for me. At there, I felt the most heart break and break down ever before. Arghh.... my grandpa passaway at here QE. What the... but I know GOD love him more than us. It is early in the morning, at 6am something, I got a call from hospital. The whole night, I can't slept, because I felt something gonna happen and besides I'm worried about my grandpa. That night, 22nd of Oct 2009, grandpa rushed to hospital for emergency. And all that night, my aunty and my mummy stayed back and look after my grandpa. At that time, grandpa was paralyze. After I got the call from my mum, my mum said, come to hospital right now because your grandpa was critical, actually grandpa passaway when mum call me. I thought that grandpa will be fine, but then, when I rushed to QE with my brother, it was too late, too late to talk to him, too late to see him for the last, too late for evrything. I rushed there and I saw evrybody was crying and my mum and dad break down, then I near to grandpa then I saw grandpa......is too late, I then kept calling him, but there's no respond, I kept wake him but... Thats the first time I felt how was the feeling when lost our beloved. Grandpa he loves us, until now I can't forget his last words to me. I can't forget the situation when i rushed to QE and saw him... even for few months he left us, but his loves still with us, his blood still flowing in my body. I know that he been watching me all along my way. He care us a lot. He guide us alot. Remember that, he touch me drove, he is the one who always support me to sport. Grandpa loves sport, and he cares his health very much. He always jog and will bring all of us to jog. Know what? When he is around, every morning he will be prepare breakfast for us, prepare all the vitamins for us. He cooked oatmeal, and do my fav milo. Now, all this I have to do by my own. I really miss him a lot. I dreamt if grandpam but I forgot bout it. I miss him, and until now I can't forget the moment he left us. ~Love you lolo~

My true FEELING-maybe la....

Since form one, 2nd of September 2004. Hahaha, I still remember that I cut my hair to boy-cut. Ya I love short hair since that day. Why? I'm not sure, but its really Comfy and relax. since I cut this hair, then I became famous at school, some of them try to cut it also. Ya, the teacher did warning me also, but I don't care, the book rules didn't say that girls cannot have a short hair. DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE? Haha... then until now I'm still having this short hair. And my favorite style was the Rihanna style, and I did cut that style and went to NS, great and comfy, new hair style, new look, and look fresh for me. But... I know people look at me differently. If girls that having short hair they will think that she is er....they call it as pengkid? Why? Since i cut this hair style I'm ready to face this situation. Is ok, I don't mind. As long as I'm not! (really?) hahaha... My friends they did told me, the first day I came to college they thought me are 'that kind'. See....why human keep thinking negative? Well humanity... Sometimes I care what they said, but what to do? that's their thinking.I can't stop them. I just can keep quiet, hide aside and cry. April, why you should cry? Why you should care what they said. Don't ever let then spoil your life. Ya, I realize now. It doesn't care what they said, as long as I know MYSELF, my family know me, and my friends know me. Being talked like that for six years, WOW WHAT A LONG TIME!... I'm used to it already, but sometimes I'm weak and.....hmmm... After I said this word- THIS IS THE FIRST AND THIS IS THE LAST, a very touching word touched my heart and I...arghhhh.... it is really touch my heart! i want to thanks TUT... ( i don't want to mention)... this word comes like this, 'I DONT WANT THE OTHERS LOOK AT YOU DIFFERENTLY', and that moment I'm speechless and arghhh touch me... all i want to say is... sometimes i'm weak to accept but i'll try to change it. Even my appearance look different, looks like tomboy, but....err... i have nothing to say. it is up to them what they want to think of me. and i'm really really hurt when m very own friend that knew me for few years then think of me the same way as the others, that really hurt me a lot. why? am i alien to be seen like that? HUMANITY.... but who am i to judge? i just be myself, try to be perfect, ( ya i know, nobody was perfect) but at least i try right? Is good to try than not trying it. BE MYSELF.. but sometimes I need guideline, I need care, I need love, I need attention...hmmm.... I just can hide and cry!!!

My X-sam.....Practical

Friday-9th of April 2010. My first time exam on cooking in the college. Ya, it is nervous and excited. It was my first semester and also the others. Thanks to my group member; Alesas and Aeron. They help a lot, and we did had a great teamwork. Wed one it very well and also thanks to chef Jack. He touch us all the cooking, the skills(of course he must, we pay the college) heee..... On that day, we've been given three recipes: 1) mushroom soup 2)fried noodle and 3)omelet. Ya it seems like easy, but need to care the cleanliness while cooking and the texture. We've been given er...if not wrong is about two and a half hours. Maybe! We first collect all the ingredients then start chopping mincing and bla bla bla... We cook the fried noodles and the roux of mushroom soup while waiting the chicken stock. At last, then I cook the omelet. And for me, I give my self and my group 80%, we done it very well. We so proud. But we still don't know the marks. Its ok, as long as we did our best. One thing that makes us laugh was, when chef Jack try our soup, he said hahaha...seems like there's sperm inside. and im thinking....eeeewwwww.......!!! Anyway, I still don't know who is Chef was, but...hahaha TUT...... -culinary arts-

My NeedeD? Is it...?

You can care about me and just deem that I'm not around.
BUT, there's nothing can change my feeling to you.
I'm sure that, at a moment it will be occur.
You will LOVE me, and never ever want to let me go.
I want to accompany you, I wanted to Love your weakness.
Always ready to give joy / let you be the most blissful person in the world.
No matter what happen, I'll be there for you.
Eventhough you are far away from me, but I know that and I believe that you LOVE me.
Besides, you will never let me go.
I want you, I want you for the rest of my life, accompany you, to love you and to make you happy. I consent to hurt before to let our journey be blissful.
Remember that, I knew this was wrong, I knew cant get anything, it doesnt make sense, but really happen to us. Just remember that this weird feeling happening now, it really happen, just let it be, time will change us. But if can i really want to love u only, The ONLY ONE!!! I rather to do anything, I knew it cant happen, but What I want you to know that I really love you and cant let you go!!! We just love each other, that's enough for me!!! LOVE you!!!

GOd has his own reason when made 'US',
and that means every HUMAN that came to this universe have to obey to the Lord.
Lord never forget that to grant us very unique 'facilities'and it name 'TALENT'.
Then if our human can find our own 'Talent' that means can find the way of success.
And to get the 'ticket' to the way(heaven), that must through our beloved mum's praying. Because in the eye of Lord, mum is the one who is the greatest position ever. This will let us remember to the elder people and to obey them to get the 'ticket'. Amen.

At a time before, there is a baby was ready to be born to the earth,

Before he came to the earth, he asked the LORD:
"All the angels said, You are goin to send me to the earth by tomorrow, but then how am I gonna survive? And I'm too small and so weak?"

Then Lord answered:
"I'd choose an angel for you and will take care of you."

"But in the heaven I just sing and laugh, this is enough for me" said the baby.

Lord answered: "Your angel will sing for you and smile for you every day, and you will feel the 'love'.

Baby asked: "But what can I do when I want to talk to You?"

Once again the Lord said: "your angel will teach you the way of praying."

But the baby asked gain: "I heard that there is a lot of bad people, so who is going to protect me?"

Lord answered gain: "your angle will protect you."

The baby asked again: "But I will sad if I cant meet You and see You."

HE answered: "your angel will tell you about me and will teach you how to come back to ME."

At that moment the heaven were silent.....

The baby asked to the Lord: "Lord, if I had to go now, would You tell me my angel's name?"

Then Lord said: " You will call your angel as a 'MUM'."

Remember our Mum's love,

she always cry for us when we are leaving far away from her,

Do we remember that our mum willing not to sleep just for taking care of us when we are sick? Do we remember that 'she' cry when we are sick? When we are in trouble, and even when we are wrong?

We should take time and go back home and visit our beloved mum that are waiting for us even midnight. back home and ask for forgiveness from Her that always smiling at us.

Please take some time even we are busy to visit Her, it is a hard thing for Her that the kids are far away from Her.

Don't let ourself regret, do it right now. Don't waste our time. DO RESPECT OUR MOM!
After this post......what do we think??? One day, for the girl will become a mother also, so respect our mom, and our next generation will do so. Lord will guide us. Amen.

What happen to me???

Argghhh,,,, what my aunty said was true, why am I so stupid? why i always think the others but don't think about myself? When I do something for them, did they appreciate it? NO! Exactly no. NEVER! But maybe some of it? We don't know? Sometimes I help the others but I really forgot about myself. Why? What did i get? Arghh.... STUPID!!! April, please wake up, humanity are very sellfish. Then what you get now APRIL? arghh... I get stress, i attract it comes. April remember 'LAW OF ATTRACTIONS', you forgot? Think yourself first then think the others. Yaya... I oalways like this, why? Don't know. But for now is enough for me, stop thinking the others, but think of myself first, help myself first. I'm very exhausted, really! Thanks to my beloved aunty! Love you so much. Ya, stop explaining to 'them'. They not VIP, they not my parents. I no need explain more to them, is enough for me. Ya true frens will listen to you. Don't know when I'll get it. sometimes being popular is very tired, but now ENOUGH! I realize that sometimes people should be sellfish so that life can go on easily. This is how the games play. I knew it now. From now on, I'll stop explaining, its depend on them want to believe or not, the main is my parents. Lord, please give me strength and dwell in me lord. Guide me Lord, I need you by myside, nowadays my parents are far from me, guide me and show me the way. Amen.
Lastly gain, April, be strong and don't be Stupid anymore. Don't attract 'IT' come.

I'm back again! Ermmm......hmmmmm!!! Today, 12 of March 2010, erm I feel so weird, so uncomfortable, feel sad, feel upset and also happy! Aik? Happy? actually not really. Just pretend HAPPY! Erm today Friday, no meat, and today was our herbs and spices midterm test. Feel nothng and I did my best. Ill prove it to my family that I can do. Then what I really feel today was afraid and mad. I'm afraid that somebody will mad at me because I can't go to pulau. Then, because of me the trip to pulau was cancel. Arghhh....what a stressfull feeling. But what can I do? My parents don't let me go, then I should listen to them. But then, I don't know why, why i can't go then the trip was cancel. Someone will angry. Im so sorry to say this but I really can't go. Hopefully they understand me. Then today I feel the sadness and madness around me. Wow! What the...... erm why ah? If I close to one person must have problem ah? I don't know why? Then, a person that I everyday close to was tryng to avoid from me, I think?? Don't know and not sure??? Blurrr...but I can feel somthing was going wrong around me. something was changing, something was annoying. Arghhh..... Somebody help me.... I care the others but why this happen????? why???

Continue my -STORY-

See, I'm back. Hee...erm what to say now? Erm??? Ok, now read this...
Today I woke up about 8 something, hmmm....Thursday, free time, but we have discussion at Fong IP about our drama. But before that, erm actually last night I slept at my aunty house lok after my cousin. Hee...ya baby sitter, I don't care I love kids so much. k, continue my story, erm I woke up, then my aunty brought me home, then all along the way home, huh....what a hard time. I talk to my aunty, and I cried, ya it was so hard, I were really really tension, I just kept it inside with me but today at last I talk to someone. Love u aunty. After the conversation, I'm really free of problem, I release all my stress. So happy and freeeeeeeeeee, if I didn't said it out maybe I'm not in mood and I really can't concentrate in my study. But I promise, 'I want to prove and study hard'. Erm...around 10am something, my aunty sent me to Fong IP, see how great I had her, love her so much. Then, Moses and I start to discuss, and we had problem, what we had to do now is, just 'buat dehhh jak'. What to do??? Just one word to describe, nobody was perfect. Include, maybe I did made mistake but I don't realise? So who know me please advice me. I need the opinion to go through this. Just like what my aunty said, sometimes we have to be cruel so that erm...we will not been bully by someone. But me, arghhh, if can I can be good to EVERY one, even they bad to me, just SORRY, then I forgot about that, then I'm easily been bully by someone, but I just keep quiet. But now not anymore, I'll be wise. Thanks aunty. But 'be ourself'. Right?

What I want?

Last Post? Hee...even this is the last post for my assignment CS1, but sure I don't want to stop it. This blogger was a place where I can speak out loud. Hee...Thanks to Miss Freda, this was fun. Now was our midterm exam and some of us were very nervous. Hahaha...but i try my best to do the best. I want to prove that my parents pay my fee at here not for enjoy at college. I want be the best among my parents's children. I want show to them and don't let them down and upset. Even they don't see what I'm doing here is not mean that I'm free, I can enjoy. NO! I'll be a good girl and be a smart girl. 'Lord guide me wherever I go, bless me, show me the way and walk with me oh Lord.' Sometimes I don't realise what was my mistake, I'm sure some of us like this also. Thats why we need somebody, family or friends to remind us, judge us. But what am I going to say was ' Don't judge a book by its covers'. And do respect to the others to be respected. Why am I saying like this? Because I found out, even three months in thie college life, we still not konwing each others very well. There are still have some misunderstanding between our friendship. Some of them so sensitive, maybe I'm include of that...heee....but I try not to, this how our life's go on. Right? For me, everyone were my friends, don't care he/she hurt me before but as long as the person said sorry I'm just OK! So the last word for this last post was 'BE YOURSELF' and 'Don't judge the others before judge ourself'.
THE END
to be continue....

Today, 22ND of February, and it almost the end of the month. Hmmmmm....so fast the time past through. Monday, and everything back to normal. Back to school and back to work. I had a very enjoyable time for the last whole week but today...arghhh my mood down again. Something bothering me in my mind and maybe I'm wrong too. And now I'm trying to say sorry and don't do that again. How silly am I to do this? 'April, start a new life from now, and don't be childish again, try to be an adult.' I know I have to face a lot of things from now on. I know that there is no depend to my mummy n daddy anymore, I'll try my best in my life. I like to hear the others critic about me so that I realise what I'd been wrong and what should I do. This is life should go on, and what they always say 'nobody was perfect'. Yup! Nobody was perfect, that's why I'll try to accept the others opinion about me, that will make my life more meaningful.

Long time didn't update my blog. Is Chinese new year now, and I'm happy and busy. Last night, we had a new year party at here. And I did invite my college friends and my brother brought his dance group too. We had fun last night, we played black jack, heee.....Chinese new year once a year, not everyday. One thing I enjoyed was spend time with my family. Ya, really I miss them a lot, specially my brother and my mother. On the fist day of Chinese new year, I did cried because my family not around me on the celebration day, feel so lonely. But they did arrived on the second day, the feeling getting up and up and up. Feel great!!! But at the same time, I miss my class, sometimes I prefer attend class rather than sit in the house. Feel lonely, but now my family were here, but they are going back on Sunday. Then I'll be lonely gain. But I thanks to GOD, because grant me a great loving family and friends. Sometimes life will bored, will full of meaning, full of memories, so what I learned on this holiday was appreciate our life because we don't know what will happen tomorrow. Always be thankful!!!

True Friends

There are many people
that we meet in our lives
but only a very few
will make a lasting impression
on our minds and hearts
It is these people that we will
think of often
and who will always remain
important to us
as true friends

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art. It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.”

I enjoyed today. Today we planned and went to the market for shopping. Haha...actually we go and bought herbs and spices for our assignment from Mr. Jack. We did found some, but i think that still not enough. But I'll try to find more and done the assignment as soon as possible. After shopping at the market, heee... then we stayed at Fong IP where it was our usual place then we continued our plan to KBOX. We did enjoyed today and this was how freinds work right? Enjoy, sharing and of course help each others when in trouble. And for me, one thing before I enjoy I must done all my work. Then most important was must plan before do anything. I don't like something that i have to rush on. It make me feel stupid. But now I know how to manage my time and i'm so happy that I had some friends that i can hang out with. They always support me and a guy that.......me. Hee... i know he loves me but i'd told him that i'm not ready and he respect me and he care me very much. Untill now he always sent me home. hee.. sometimes i feel so burden to him. Anyway I appreciate my friends that GOD grant for me and lastly THANK YOU my dear friends.

25-July-2009; our last sweet memory with my grandpa. It was the greatest memory for me and I can't forget about it. Grandpa and grandma had a sweet memory and they were so happy and proud of what we had done for them. On that night, we did sing, danced, Karatae performed and guitar performed too. I did the video too, and all the cousin we performed Hawaiian Dance, Hip hop and the Cha-cha Dance. My brother was the chorographer of our dance. We took one month to dance perfectly for three dances. I'm also took part in the guitar performed and my cousin -Estee, she sang the song 'Rainbow Connection'. Even though our performed not really perfectly but we did the best and of course my grandpa and grandma so happy for us. We did enjoy a lot at that night and that was our Perete Family. I'm really proud that we did a great night for them but I'm sad that when every time I saw this picture it's really our last picture with grandpa. After this anniversary, my aunty took my grandpa to body checkup and the doctor found out that he had lung cancer, unfortunately it was the 4th state and we can't do anything. When I heard about this news, I was blank and that night I dreamt that my grandpa lying in the coffin. But on the 23rd of October 2009, it really happen to us, God call him back and it is time to leave us. Actually my grandpa had throat cancer 17 years ago and he did his therapy on the 23rd of October too. But God love him and gave him 17 years life to have us. He was a loving person, even my mummy's father passed away my mummy didn't feel so much paint but with my grandpa, that was the first time I saw my mum and dad breakdown. When I rushed to QE Hospital, it was too late to say goodbye to grandpa. I really can't accept it, I'm just kept call grandpa and my cousin she calmed me down. This was my first time to loss my beloved one. I can't accept it, even till now. But it is meant to be, God love him more than us. But I felt so sorry because I didn't spend much time with him, even holiday I didn't come to KK and visit them. I'm so selfish, and I'm really sorry that I had waste my time for a year. I knew my grandpa he so upset, his last word for me ' April, don't waste your time, start enroll, go study, look at me now, I can't do anything'. I did promise that I cook for him but it is too late. I'm so regret now. This was the first celebration of anniversary and the last.

And this is my 'MAMA', ya I'm closed to her after finish my training. Everybody in the camp so scared at her, because she's the one who is very strict to the trainer. I did told her and asked her before. I said, ' Mama, do you know that we scare of you?' She said; she knew it, but actually she'd not. She just pretending, hee macho. When i get close to her, I'd found out that she was a lovely person. She cared about me but I'm still scared that when she get mad. But she so nice, different to others. She so discipline, work time she will serious, duty off she's just like different person. I remember that every morning roll call, she will checked our uniform. Everybody just stand still to be checked by mama, everybody don't dare to move because when she get angry and she..... but for me, she so cool and nice. She care about me and she love me. Thanks for guiding me mama.

Now change topic to my grandpa and grandma 50th Golden Anniversary's on last year. We did prepared a lot of things to done this anniversary perfectly. I do the background and the hall decoration. My aunty was the programmer of the party. 50th anniversary, we were proud of them because not everybody can wait till this day? This picture we took after the blessing ceremony in the chapel. Grandpa and grandma so happy that we had done a greatest anniversary for them. That was a very sweet memory and unforgetable memory for them or us. We can see this couple had been through a lot of barriers. We were so proud to be their children, they touch us a lot and guide us. Even they have 16 grandchildren they love all of us and they always spend time with us. Especially my beloved lately grandpa, he always bring us to jogging. He said, 'we must always sports to stay in healthy'. I will remember what he said, I miss him so much. And the last word he said to me, 'April, study hard and don't waste your time'. I will do my best and show it to him that I can be a chef. He also told us don't ever give up in what we chasing on, try again and again and again till we can. When I saw this picture, I'll remember what he had told me and his smile in this picture is comforting me. Grandpa I miss you. 'God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put His arms around you and whispered 'Come To Me', with tearful eyes we watched you and saw you passed away. Although we love you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating hardworking hands at rest. God broke our hearts to prove us...... He only takes the best'.

From the left: Angie,Pieqah, Lala,my 'IBU', me, Hilda, Lynda, Katy and Bai. This was my only one picture that i took with ibu. Ibu love us so much, and this were our last day in camp Shan Shui. We were sad and so happy at the same time because leaving the camp and we are going home. I remember that we do our decoration block till morning but ibu she cared about us and she cooked mee for us. She was a very gently and caring couch. Because she wiiling do the decoration with us till morning even she was sleepy. Till today I still contact with her, and i remember that I'd spin my leg when playing the netball she's the one who took care of me. I am so stubborn because my leg was swollen but I don't want go to the medic. Ibu forced me and asked my friend to carry me. I'm really shy at that time because I burden them. But at the same time ibu she scold me and she so worried about me. I can't forget that ibu took care of me in the camp and she loved me so much. I'm so lucky to have her as my ibu. I think she adopted me as her gril. Hee,, I think... Maybe???

My national service. This picture we took on the night of 'Citra Malam Puisi'. I'd been chosen to be host with my friends. We are came from different places and different races; Chinese, India and Malay. Our group been chosen to handle all along the night. We done it very well even had some technical problem. We did fixed it well. The other three group, they do their drama, singing and poem presentation. We as the host very nervous at that night and it was my first time to host in malay version. But they said we done it well, we were very proud. One of the group did very well and they deserved the first price because their drama very touching and meaningfull. And one of our member also get the first price to do her poem, she done it very seriously and she was very touching and she can cry out. We done our show about 11pm, then all of us back to our block. We were very silly at that time, we dancing around and playing around in the block and at last our couch we name her 'ibu' she get angry. We had a group name THE XP. I also don't know why they name it like that but it was my coolest memory in my life.

This was my last year when joining the national service at Kem Shan Shui, Tawau. It was fun and I did learn a lot and experience a lot. We went to the Jabatan Haiwan for a visit. We went to the clinic, to a place that they burn the animal that had died and we went to the cow farm too. We’ve been given some briefing before start our visitation. They ask a volunteer, then three of us went out. Guess what? They brought all of us to the cow farm. Then they gave the glove to us, and that they ask us to wash our hands. The doctor said, we going to check the cow whether it had baby or not. Then the doctor does his to check the cow first. Then my turn to check, first it was disgusting and all over my hand was cover by blood. But the cow feel nothing, I was scared to hurt it. I just do it gently and the cow don have a baby. But I’ve try it already and I experience it.

Our first day practical, it is very fun even though our group were in 10 person a group all of us want to do everything. Our cook was fish stock, our recipe was;

Butter, onion, celery, carrot, mushroom, bones from lean fish, lemon, bay leaf, peppercorns, parsley stems, whole clove.

When I help to do the simmering, I've been laughed by the others member because I was too short to look through the stockpot, they ask whether need to use a chair or not? It was funny, and we have waited for about 45 minutes, our stock was done and it was perfect. The other group does the brown stock, after they done we had their beef, even it was not tasted, but we still having it. After done the stock, we do our cleaning. Some of us need to stay back on our duty, we have a lot of fun but of course we learn cooked stock. After the class, we went to centre point and had a walk. We also went to the KBox, we sang out there. College life, I really enjoy it and I must do my best to prove that I can be chef even Im short.

I've learn bout fruits and vegetables. Ya, a lot of info that i never know before. Fruits and vegetables consist a lot of vitamins. We need vitamins in our body to maintain our health. Vitamins are classified according to how they absorbed and stored in the human body. Vitamins A, D, E and K are soluble in water. The body can store fat-soluble vitamins in the liver and fatty tissue. Vitamin A: there are several forms of this vitamin. The performed, or active, ones are retinol, retinoic acid, and retinyl esters. Vitamin A is essential to normal vision and to prevent night blindness. But it is also necessary for normal cell division and growth, the development of bones and teeth, and for the health of skin, mucous membranes and epithelial tissue. Its antioxidant properties help to prevent the cancer-causing cell damage inflicted by free radicals that are released when the body uses oxygen. It is also can help to prevent lung cancer. We can get vitamins A from orange and yellow fruits and vegetables, such as carrots, squash, and cantaloupes; leafy green vegetables. To keep our body maintain healthy we must take fruits and vegetables in our daily meal.

2006, at this year I was 15 years old. On the month of March, my mum did went to KK here for holiday. My brother and I stay at Lahad datu because of school. At this moment, my mum did call us, sha ask us whether we want a little brother or not. That time we was jst thinking about they gonna make a baby. So funny, but they tell us, we goin to adopt a baby. This baby's family cannot afford this coming baby, so they decided to do abortion. But my grandma said better give the baby to the others. Then they agree.
16th of August- The baby was born, and we decid to adopt from the hospital, but the baby's mum didn't know that we adopt the baby. It was a boy, and we name the baby Samuel. We love the child very much, now he just 3 years old. But last year, 2009, when the first week he go to school he get a sicknees call 'Kawasaki', so weird? He so suffer, the sicknees will lead to stroke or even death because it effect the hearts swollen. But he was a lucky boy, he very lucky, we did took him to the greatest doctor. Now he is well, he so active, so cute, he learn so fast. We love him very much, we thank God grant us this child.

Im from Lahad Datu,I just moved to KK here for study. I take Diplome in Culinary Arts + HND. Im not new here, I have family here, when holiday Ill be here with my grandparents for holiday. Why I take this course- Culinary Arts? Is not because I love to eat. Is not because of my family order. It is because of I like the feeling when somebody eat my food. I like to serve and Im ready for the challenge of my life. When I'd watched the tv show- AFC, Jamie Oliver did inspired me. He let me know bout food knowledge. About keep simple in our life but be healthy. Cooking also include our creativiti skill, is just not bout food taste but also the look of our food that can attract our customers. For me, my cooking must be creative, nice to look, but it must be a very healthy food. I have a grandmother that was stroke now, she fall down in front of my eyes, so from now on I want to take care of my family's diet. Since that incident,I decided to be a chef that cook healthy food for all the people. I'll success in oneday, Ill show it to my family that I can do it.

Lifesytle

What i've learn this two days? This week was my first week to begin my college life. I have a lot of fun being know a lot of new friends. Since i step into the college, I have decided to be a good girl, pay attention in the class and try not to hurts the others feeling. I try my best to do that. Our lecturer had told us to do an assignment and we had a group. But we were facing a problem yesterday. But we try our best to avoid from quarreling. But I did learn a lesson from this situation. Sometimes we didn't know that we might hurts our friend's feeling. We should think twice before we talk. Just like my friend, he talk something that shouldn't be, that hurts one of our group member, they almost get into a quarrel. After the argument, we went home and I did text to the guy. I said to him, 'next time try to hear the other's opinion then our member will respect you'. In our lifestyle, if we did wrong we must say 'sorry'. If we respect the others then they will respect us too. Try to be rasional when doing something, listen to what they say, listen to the others opinion, then we will been respect.