Im not the only one

apparently im not the only one who feel this, one of my friend did asked a 'male', she asked that, why did love so selfish, sometime so lovable, sometime the guys....hmmm... 'three minutes hot', it means by, starting couple, well it goes very well, everyday on call, text what they're doing, text where are they, text on EVERYTHING!!!! Well, her question tick on my mind, what really goes in my mind, it really ticking, ticking, ticking.... then i joined in the conversation, and listened to a guy...(a lot of reasons). he said, at first, ya of course, excited man...if you get closer to others, hmmm get into HULK... meet in everyday, after a while, then this boy will less doing on what they usually did. Why??? answer is : at first, all the love already shown to the girls, he might thought that he get the girl.

but for me, even kind of bored, but....hold on man, hold on as usual, if stop! there will be something happen, i mean maybe argument, worse case will break up. but keep it up!!!!!

HEY GUYS!!! you get a girl, then take care of her, don't just because you bored of doing something that you did before then you ignore her, she has feeling, she will feel that you ignore her even she know that she's yours.

im not the only one who felt this, it just we don't realize, when somebody talked about it then...it comes out... pop out !!! what i know... "APPRECIATE those who loves you"

- changing -

Happy??? not really, but, this few days...my eyes... tired babe ! but its okay, just for you, i'm wiling to if this will make you happy, =)

i make a minion stuff toy for you, while im doing on it, my mind keep thinking, keep running, well.. it goes like this... why i want to do this? why should i? then the answer is, ngeeee..... just because you love lorh, what to do, this comes to my mind. Cant change it, even hurt, hurt, hurt and hurt agian. Weeee... few days ago, haih, conflict, until im goin crazy man. but for now, i know it doesnt change but i must accept it, its ok to be hurt again, only i feel, not you, so its ok.... =')

what a funny blog i read just now, my dear friend basung created a new blog, she asked me to teach her, hehe... i forget larh, slowly, step by step will go on well.... just like our relation.

fix fix fix fix fix fix.... never give up...

happy that this few nights i accompany you, even im sleepy, but i said before, im just here with you, never leave you alone... anyway, what happens before is just a past, and we learning from it, im trying to fight on it, how about you? hmmm....

along the way...

Just a long the way,

from KK to LD, from LD to KK,

back again from KK to SDKN,

SDKN to KK....

long long way, and my mind keep running,

im not bored on this long way on road trip,

my mum did! she tired of it...

actually, on road trip will be more fun,

just like what i know about something with it,

"nunuk ragang" a place that orang asli from there,

i'll visit there later with someone special...

along the way, my mind keep thinking of someone,

hard to say it, but real,

dislike on that person's action but still care,

why sometimes when we hurt but we still wanna go for it???

stupid???

i dont think so, but maybe this is how you care....

i keep on it, keep on thinking,

keep on doubting,

keep on and on.... what the...???

eeee.... my life,

when will i have what i want?

law of attractions, did i use it,

i dont think so.... =(

NOW, feel so so so lonely,

feel very far away, dont have the mood on study,

assignment? ngeee...... nope ! not now !

feel jealous, feel stupid,

but one day if i explode.... then you'll see who am i...

BOOOOMMMM !!!!!

MY HEART,,,,, arghhhhhh.....................

Everything come to me today.... until don't have the mood to update my blog, just wanna say....

I don't need a Perfect person to Love me, but I need a person that can make me feel I'M THE ONLY ONE.....

THE END !!!!

Caught in an accident...

Today, really thanks to God that I'm still alive. What a shock for me, it was all about a stupid car that rushing towards to the green light, and caused of trouble. After passenger drop by, a viva accidentally struck to our bus when the bus drove to the main road. Luckily, nobody hurt but so bad to the viva, well Economic car... what was funny was, you can heard girls shouting, awwwww... hurt my ears... but praise the LORD.

and today was our first kitchen, well quite boring, hmmm... ==|
we learned how to make salad, sandwich, canapé, and garnishing.... unfortunately, our batch still can fight with JUNIOR MASTERCHEF... I salute the kids babe, what ah.... (speechless)... But for me, I know that I can make it to what I want. Ill be the best as I can.

Conflict of Emotion...

As usual I went to college, today nobody took my place just like yesterday, so in the morning feel very great and funny. When I got in the bus, I've seated at behind with three guys, one....erm... usual larh, not really good looking(hehehe....), he just sat beside the window, and me... sat between the two guys and one of them caught my eye on him. Hahahaha, because he dress up very well, cool, tidy and he is good looking. That time 7.30am, and it was really jammed, well,in the bus quite silent perhaps just a silent death people bus... Suddenly, I feel vibrate on the sofa that I sat on, and it comes out with a freakyyyy sound like this.. "prreeeetttt"... Then I have a look on that "handsome guy", I thought it was his mobile, but then I realized that he holding his mobile, I know the other guy also holding his mobile, then I realized that maybe HE FART, because when I look at him, his face turn to red.... hahaha.... a vibration fart huh, cool man, and I connected.

Talk about my class today, hmmm nothing special, just gave me.... ya, i laugh, i talk but not concentrated, argh, how am I gonna get a good grade? Seriously wanna talk about my friends, yessss they are funny but sometimes not the right time. And, something really bother me today, and made me feel very stupid about myself, luckily mama advised and.... okay.....NO MORE NEXT TIME, don't be just like a slave. JANGAN LEMBUT HATI.....

Is just a DREAM ==|

First day to class, pissed me off when waiting for bus, I've been wait for 15minutes then a girl appear direct she rushing in front of me and took my place, I have to wait another bus... ngeee...... how bad is she....

western cookery...alarh jap jak, introduction trud blek... -BUANG MASA jak. After class, my friends and I wait for our next class at common room for THREE hours ok? hmmm.... I'm tired... but then luckily Juan and Carmen with me then Juan introduce me something fun. -LOMO- yay ! At first, a toy, fancy, cute... then when I have a look on it... I started to like it very much. I've decided, digital SLR... later la when I'm really pro.... for now... yess for me... LOMO-Minimo-... that i want. Hye I just woke up, and...eeeeeeee just a dream that i'd own a LOMO. ==| such a hopeless.... hmmm...but I knew it I'm gonna have it... Law of Attractions. Then, suddenly my mind come out with this... how about direct buy dslr and learn? But, i remember Carmen said, "you let people see what you see, no use on it if you bought a camera then you use AUTO!"
Yup! I agree... I start snapping with my HP... only a common HP.... no camera, but i know i'm doin well..."we just a beginner"..

I want LOMO....hehehehe... it is very old school, very natural... love it...