What I want?

Last Post? Hee...even this is the last post for my assignment CS1, but sure I don't want to stop it. This blogger was a place where I can speak out loud. Hee...Thanks to Miss Freda, this was fun. Now was our midterm exam and some of us were very nervous. Hahaha...but i try my best to do the best. I want to prove that my parents pay my fee at here not for enjoy at college. I want be the best among my parents's children. I want show to them and don't let them down and upset. Even they don't see what I'm doing here is not mean that I'm free, I can enjoy. NO! I'll be a good girl and be a smart girl. 'Lord guide me wherever I go, bless me, show me the way and walk with me oh Lord.' Sometimes I don't realise what was my mistake, I'm sure some of us like this also. Thats why we need somebody, family or friends to remind us, judge us. But what am I going to say was ' Don't judge a book by its covers'. And do respect to the others to be respected. Why am I saying like this? Because I found out, even three months in thie college life, we still not konwing each others very well. There are still have some misunderstanding between our friendship. Some of them so sensitive, maybe I'm include of that...heee....but I try not to, this how our life's go on. Right? For me, everyone were my friends, don't care he/she hurt me before but as long as the person said sorry I'm just OK! So the last word for this last post was 'BE YOURSELF' and 'Don't judge the others before judge ourself'.
THE END
to be continue....

Today, 22ND of February, and it almost the end of the month. Hmmmmm....so fast the time past through. Monday, and everything back to normal. Back to school and back to work. I had a very enjoyable time for the last whole week but today...arghhh my mood down again. Something bothering me in my mind and maybe I'm wrong too. And now I'm trying to say sorry and don't do that again. How silly am I to do this? 'April, start a new life from now, and don't be childish again, try to be an adult.' I know I have to face a lot of things from now on. I know that there is no depend to my mummy n daddy anymore, I'll try my best in my life. I like to hear the others critic about me so that I realise what I'd been wrong and what should I do. This is life should go on, and what they always say 'nobody was perfect'. Yup! Nobody was perfect, that's why I'll try to accept the others opinion about me, that will make my life more meaningful.

Long time didn't update my blog. Is Chinese new year now, and I'm happy and busy. Last night, we had a new year party at here. And I did invite my college friends and my brother brought his dance group too. We had fun last night, we played black jack, heee.....Chinese new year once a year, not everyday. One thing I enjoyed was spend time with my family. Ya, really I miss them a lot, specially my brother and my mother. On the fist day of Chinese new year, I did cried because my family not around me on the celebration day, feel so lonely. But they did arrived on the second day, the feeling getting up and up and up. Feel great!!! But at the same time, I miss my class, sometimes I prefer attend class rather than sit in the house. Feel lonely, but now my family were here, but they are going back on Sunday. Then I'll be lonely gain. But I thanks to GOD, because grant me a great loving family and friends. Sometimes life will bored, will full of meaning, full of memories, so what I learned on this holiday was appreciate our life because we don't know what will happen tomorrow. Always be thankful!!!

True Friends

There are many people
that we meet in our lives
but only a very few
will make a lasting impression
on our minds and hearts
It is these people that we will
think of often
and who will always remain
important to us
as true friends

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art. It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.”

I enjoyed today. Today we planned and went to the market for shopping. Haha...actually we go and bought herbs and spices for our assignment from Mr. Jack. We did found some, but i think that still not enough. But I'll try to find more and done the assignment as soon as possible. After shopping at the market, heee... then we stayed at Fong IP where it was our usual place then we continued our plan to KBOX. We did enjoyed today and this was how freinds work right? Enjoy, sharing and of course help each others when in trouble. And for me, one thing before I enjoy I must done all my work. Then most important was must plan before do anything. I don't like something that i have to rush on. It make me feel stupid. But now I know how to manage my time and i'm so happy that I had some friends that i can hang out with. They always support me and a guy that.......me. Hee... i know he loves me but i'd told him that i'm not ready and he respect me and he care me very much. Untill now he always sent me home. hee.. sometimes i feel so burden to him. Anyway I appreciate my friends that GOD grant for me and lastly THANK YOU my dear friends.

25-July-2009; our last sweet memory with my grandpa. It was the greatest memory for me and I can't forget about it. Grandpa and grandma had a sweet memory and they were so happy and proud of what we had done for them. On that night, we did sing, danced, Karatae performed and guitar performed too. I did the video too, and all the cousin we performed Hawaiian Dance, Hip hop and the Cha-cha Dance. My brother was the chorographer of our dance. We took one month to dance perfectly for three dances. I'm also took part in the guitar performed and my cousin -Estee, she sang the song 'Rainbow Connection'. Even though our performed not really perfectly but we did the best and of course my grandpa and grandma so happy for us. We did enjoy a lot at that night and that was our Perete Family. I'm really proud that we did a great night for them but I'm sad that when every time I saw this picture it's really our last picture with grandpa. After this anniversary, my aunty took my grandpa to body checkup and the doctor found out that he had lung cancer, unfortunately it was the 4th state and we can't do anything. When I heard about this news, I was blank and that night I dreamt that my grandpa lying in the coffin. But on the 23rd of October 2009, it really happen to us, God call him back and it is time to leave us. Actually my grandpa had throat cancer 17 years ago and he did his therapy on the 23rd of October too. But God love him and gave him 17 years life to have us. He was a loving person, even my mummy's father passed away my mummy didn't feel so much paint but with my grandpa, that was the first time I saw my mum and dad breakdown. When I rushed to QE Hospital, it was too late to say goodbye to grandpa. I really can't accept it, I'm just kept call grandpa and my cousin she calmed me down. This was my first time to loss my beloved one. I can't accept it, even till now. But it is meant to be, God love him more than us. But I felt so sorry because I didn't spend much time with him, even holiday I didn't come to KK and visit them. I'm so selfish, and I'm really sorry that I had waste my time for a year. I knew my grandpa he so upset, his last word for me ' April, don't waste your time, start enroll, go study, look at me now, I can't do anything'. I did promise that I cook for him but it is too late. I'm so regret now. This was the first celebration of anniversary and the last.